Actually, I'm not really in the mood to drop some words for the time being. But I just have to. I wanna write an inscription about what has been going on with my life for these last three weeks. First of all, let me make a confession. I've been devastated even since the iudicium day (it was in mid-September). Thought that day would mark my very final day as a junior doctor (are you familiar with this term??). Thought I'd be free from my duty at hospital for a while after 18 months of working my ass, boring daily routines of seeing the patients in the wards, tons of case discussions, bla bla bla. I thought I'd make it perfectly by the iudicium day. I was confident though considering that I always did my best in each final exam at each departments. My mind was filled with a couple of wild imagination of making trip to, say Singapore or Bangkok; or enroll myself for an ECG course or that kinds of trainings. But it ALL got screwed up simply because I failed in my pediatric test. For this reason the faculty sent me and a flock of buddies who were as "lucky" as me, back to the lovely peadiatric department for 4 weeks. I was totally upset, jealous, and partially ashamed. But I managed not to show these my very feelings to others, but the pain remained there. I've been feeling somewhat sacrified by that f*****g person. Blaaaah.
But life goes on. Now me voici!! Been already in my second remedial week at pediatric dept. Me and my other 8 buddies will try our best to survive this obstacle. We've been like one big family lately he he. Impossobly difficult written test is scheduled by the third week and the oral exam by the last week. So hopefully we'll have been finished by the 3rd week of this October. But tomorrow we'll still have to try to negotiate the date of our second iudicium with our new dean in a hope that we still can catch up with UKDI (kind of USMLE in the US) taking place in November. We really have to try cuz we're in need of STL (Surat Tanda Lulus) as one of requirements to apply for UKDI. All other requirements must be handed in by this Oct 13, but the STL can be enclosed not later than Nov 3. So we do hope that our second iudicium can take place during the last week of Oct. Hope our new dean is wise enough and open-minded. If it goes as expected my short-term to-do list would look like this: written exam - oral exam - iudicium - UKDI - graduation ceremony - INTERNSHIP. I'll do whatever it takes, but still it's all back in God's hand. But I believe that unthinkably good things can happen, even late in the game. In the name of Allah ;) peace be upon all of us.
But life goes on. Now me voici!! Been already in my second remedial week at pediatric dept. Me and my other 8 buddies will try our best to survive this obstacle. We've been like one big family lately he he. Impossobly difficult written test is scheduled by the third week and the oral exam by the last week. So hopefully we'll have been finished by the 3rd week of this October. But tomorrow we'll still have to try to negotiate the date of our second iudicium with our new dean in a hope that we still can catch up with UKDI (kind of USMLE in the US) taking place in November. We really have to try cuz we're in need of STL (Surat Tanda Lulus) as one of requirements to apply for UKDI. All other requirements must be handed in by this Oct 13, but the STL can be enclosed not later than Nov 3. So we do hope that our second iudicium can take place during the last week of Oct. Hope our new dean is wise enough and open-minded. If it goes as expected my short-term to-do list would look like this: written exam - oral exam - iudicium - UKDI - graduation ceremony - INTERNSHIP. I'll do whatever it takes, but still it's all back in God's hand. But I believe that unthinkably good things can happen, even late in the game. In the name of Allah ;) peace be upon all of us.
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